how are you doing

2005-04-18, 11:22 p.m.

low and high, but right now im very up because the moon is weeping in my back yard and the tears keep landing in the pond with a wonderous sound like silk on metal.

im a fully operational machine. i am compiling all the improbabilities around me, like a botanist in the rain forest. i am watching my footsteps grow and stretch off into the horizon, each second i am beckoned to follow. this is the wall that i will reach and its the cliff i look over before momentum swings me over.

the one thing i cant calculate is hesitation. this throws me all off, because right now i am the stop and go traffic on a L.A. freeway. i can> i wont> she will> you'll lose> just jump> dont fall> ...