here is the spring sun again

2004-05-10, 3:16 p.m.

so here i am, with a video in hand, and i have never watched it, none the less i want to watch it. i cant though, for me to be recognized, it has a comical ring to it that leaves my stomach squashed in the lower recesses of my being. i read the words "national call... 2 films by paul braun.." i laugh. immediately there is an urge to find fault with the dvd, with the company, even with the videos of peers, just so i can dessimate my own work (true sabatoge comes from destroying yourself).

here is where i remember my english teacher talking about the voice of any piece of art. you have to watch out because if you start too lofty, then it will seem forced when you flow down into the simplistic thoughts. conversely, you could never be believable if you started out utterly simple, but reached up to the enlightened voice. plastic to dirt and dirt to oil, so you have need to start with the medium.

not to say the origin needs to be mundane

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