three things

2003-19-10, 11:22 p.m.

there are three things that i know for certain right now:

1. the only thoughts that arent clouded and ambiguous are the ones you keep inside.

2. smiles are good, very good, but is it just a drug so that i can be less prepared next time he doesnt call.

3. sickness is a way to ground any mind, to make the most fluid thoughts more like grape jello than wine.

there are only three things i can grasp onto right now, with any other beginning chapter, my eyes blur and the type shakes uncontrollaby, burning the page with friction.