another night of deficit

2005-06-24, 1:36 a.m.

so this girl wasnt dead after all. she was existing just like me, with a mouth gasping for breath in the morning and with
eyes that always wore the veil of tiredness.

i thought it was an interesting question to ask: true or false, i am now conviced that i will not live up to the average age expectancy.

you could be the fool who thinks life is played out just like with legos' and we build our homes with illustrated instructions, then we slowly decay once out of the mind of our child creator.

you could be the optimist who thinks we are given mountains to climb, but even at the peaks there is no wind strong enough to sweep us away

maybe the devout kneels at sun up and sun set, but this cannot mean he is cuddled in the blanket of protection untill he is well into the ripe ages beyond retirement.

TRUE.

so he asks me to find the similarities of easy things, apple and pear. bowl and cup.
-freedom and law-
freedom is liberty and liberty is upheald by law, but laws are preteens in the social conscience of humanity. Hammurabi didnt decide to make his precarious propsition untill homo sapien sapiens were fully developed as a species. so are we that bold as to say HUMANS HAVE ONLY BEEN FREE A FEW THOUSAND YEARS?

can we please pull the blind of mother culture off our heads for just a little while? can we stop pretending that we hold a greater number of intrinsic atoms in our posession than say... a tree, or a leaf? can we please stop putting weight on a soul, when we have no ways to measure its mass?

put a dictionary in the fire and turn on the tv. your lexicon will expand and contract like some star in its last few years. euphomatic pastures of diction will sprout on the gray hills of your brain. this is yours now, your little piece of heaven. work 40 years and you can think of florida and mercedes benzes.