one of these days ill have a conclusion

2004-10-27, 2:16 p.m.

give a plant some light and it will grow
give a stray cat food and it will come back for more
give yourself a chance to feel and the insides of your body will be overrun by the vines and the roots of your mind

looking around, i see the colors of the sky and the buldings immersed in conversations spoken in foreign tongues; im waiting for teh rain to come again. im waiting at the edge of the rocks, the tide will come to my feet and drag sand over my toes, ill disappear into the earth and become one of the jagged formations from which the white caps explode into the air. violent froth plummets back to the water like a dying fireworks display, soundless entrance, nobody watching today.

idle becomes active, but silence is continual where i am right now, preoccupied by a million scenarios except for this one, i may need to change that someday; someday is never, in most peoples minds (probably mine too). i was walking to my car today and i just happened to be ahead of a girl going in the same direction. when we passed through the same gate she quickly commented "im not stalking you, i swear." this made me laugh, but whether it was a result of awkward silence or the shear idea of someone really taking that kind of interest in me, im not sure.