that was more than one REM

2004-07-19, 6:30 p.m.

my ear is burning and swollen, and my skin feels as though it is separating from my flesh with a deliberate slowness. eyes are red, too red to let me believe they are normally white. and my hands; frozen blocks of ice, shackled with chains on each finger.

thats what my body feels like, but inside there is a different flow of sensation, and to that i am clinging with reverence to its temporary lifespan.