the crystal lake is calling me tonight

2003-09-24, 12:31 p.m.

and then again, i come to the walls, they have been strewn with pink confetti, fliers listing the names and faces of any number of people i will never see. i can remember the sounds of a door closing, and underneath the blanket, i was suffocated, crushed like hay under the circus elephant's foot. but, just like i had never expected, there were people around who saw things different, they may have seen something in me that i cant see.

i remember laying down on a friends bed, my legs expreriencing gravity 100 times greater than my chest, and my head was in empty space. things appear a bit more yellow than those nights (is it richness, or the lingering that i want to cast away). oh lure, oh deviant fires, canndle burns

shadows pound the walls, charcoal fists.

muted whip snaps from a healthy flame, salsa dancer of chemical proportions.

one hundred yards

small men become giants, bits of childhood dreams are laid out

buffet style but in

transparent carapace, you still remember it is fleeting

and you could smile

you could cry

you could remain centered

money

it is too important

the history of man is reflective

you are not alone

the difference is invisible

priceless

galaxies are born with

16 billion years of energy

with experience that outlasts

time

are you born with a textbook

you have to read before

you get a taste of the real world

unavoidable

accept it and live with it

the battle is uphill when

you close your eyes to dream

reality

trivialize your dreams with books

symbols can be found on the walls

nothing original because you should see

those dusty walls in egypt

repeated

all of you feel you are invincible

keep your eyes open

so you don't get hurt

i say fuck that

one chance to live the life you want

freedom

consolidate your ideas into a career

take a drug to keep you calm

take another drug to make you smile

keep your eyes open

so you can see the clock ticking

I WILL CLOSE MY EYES TONIGHT

i will dream

that i was never imbued with your

salary - pension - healthcare

insurance deals - new pills that heal

third television - laser eye incisions

memory foams - cellular phones

1/2 burgers - corporate prisoners

tgif wwjd pc fyi- because we have to get home sooner, you want me to spell it out for you?

close your god damn eyes and forget, just for a second, the slanted histories, and the corporate misery.