ugh, writing comes second when thses eyes sag and droop

2002-11-26, 1:09 a.m.

im just gonna find some things that i have writen before because i wanna write but im too far inside my thoughts to translate:

(11/22) when i walked outside i looked up at the moon,

it was like a satin sheet of grey covering a dark purple background light from the moon was making everthing white

i swear, i saw a galaxies dust in the clouds

bubbling and twisting

---this contradiction... enlightebnment...

to reach this plateau and realize no one is up there with you---wind speaks of bitter lonely---

how you might shiver with this wind

yes, you have cast away this need for emotions like "lonely". yes, what is this enlightenment without a partner to share it, question: if you were one foot from reaching the top of that plateau, and this other person is slipping, do you help them and risk your own triumph?

audreyetc: i should hope so

yes, reach out your hand and fall with them.

ah yes, quite a fall that would be.

.....ten thousand orgasms wrapped in the stare of that persons eyes........

well yes i suppose thats all for me right now and i do hope that my sister would realize her error and call or something, anything.